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[10 Oct 2009|09:40am] |
*Waves fist at sky* Thanks Jennii, bastid! ;)
Sorry I haven't posted in... wow, has it really been 8 weeks. I hate to say it, but I have completely lost interest in lj and myspace. I only keep lj for my gallery and I only keep myspace for Sons of Perdition. Then facebook came out and it's even more retarded then myspace and lj. At least you can customize lj and ms, but all my professional connections are on facebook, so now I am too:( If anyone wants to look for me on facebook, go for it. To be honest though, I rarely post anything or read anything there either. Also, don't be butt hurt if you are one of those people who updates 50 times a day with stupid shit like Johnny Vengeance: "Is making a tuna melt." and I erase you. I hate that, it's so stupid.
Hmmm, update... This will probably be my last lj update. A lot is new. I will be exhibiting my photography along side HR Giger and Chad Michael Ward on Devil's Night in Detroit. FUCK YEAH! I'll also be exhibiting with one of my newest favorite artists Anisa Nin in Cali in Nov. She is so amazing. If you haven't seen her stuff, check her out. Also, I finally won something in photography. YAY! Going from not winning anything before to winning this is surreal. A still from a shoot a couple of weeks ago was voted one of the best artistic nudes of the 20th Century by NUDE Magizine. I'm so happy about that. YAY!
Hmmm, what else... the movie is slow going. Nothing has happened in a while. My bankruptcy is over and I got to keep all my gear. YAY! Tammi is such an amazing woman! My new house rocks! Right now, I'm editing my first designer shoot. Life is pretty damn awesome:)
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[12 Aug 2009|10:39am] |
Well, it's been 2 months since I posted anything and if I don't post something in the next couple of days, my account will be closed.
Here is my token post...... POST.
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[22 May 2009|12:36pm] |
Today is a good day, HAHA! Man of Perdition is taking on a life of it's own now and I'm just on for the ride. Within a few hours, the script was requested by 3 of the top Hollywood Talent Agencies. How fucking coo is thatl!
Yes, Yes it is rated "R" ....... for RUIN;)
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| Cataclysmia! |
[07 May 2009|03:12pm] |
"Cataclysmia" A fake movie about puppies, Starring Tam Wren. You'll laugh, you'll cry, You'll DIE! "Cataclysmia!"
My first shoot with my Miss. OMG! We had so much fun!
Cut for Psycotronic Boobies
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[05 May 2009|09:07am] |
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Life is good. My connection says, Man of Perdition WILL get made! Tam is the most amazing woman I have ever met. My friends are awesome. My new designer is on her way. I have a waiting list 30 models deep. Next month I have my first Magazine cover and convention. I am just so happy to be alive and living the dream! It is a long time comin'!
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[30 Apr 2009|10:10am] |
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Things are happening so fast, I can hardly wrap my head around it. It's so weird to think about all the years I have spent working toward this. Here I am, 16 years after I wrote my first screenplay and I might actually get to live my dream. Life is strange.
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| Damn if feels good to be a gangsta!!! |
[28 Apr 2009|12:26pm] |
Script update...
I got an email yesterday on where Man of Perdition stands with the studios. Most large studios have 3 safties in place to pass in order to greenlight a film; the impartial readers, the partners and the GM. There is less then a 50% chance a script will get past the readers. From there, there is less then a 15% chance of getting past the partners. The GM usually agrees with the partners, but also looks at the profitability of a film as well as X-factor.
We made it past the readers AND the partners. What this all boils down to is about a 90-97% chance we'll get greenlighted. My contact has a very strong feeling we'll get the greenlight! We'll find out in a couple of weeks!
This is the part where I poop! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!
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[17 Apr 2009|12:51pm] |
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Storyboarding like a mofo! The anticipation is KILLING me!!!!
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| SCREENPLAY MOFO! |
[15 Apr 2009|10:02am] |
HAHA!!! Life is good! Man of Perdition is finally DONE! Like done, DONE! I just sent it off to the first Production Company not 30 seconds ago. All I gotta say is, Damn it feels good to be a gangsta! If there are any of you out there that would like to read it (Amy;) leave your email address in a reply and I'll shoot it off to you ASAP.
EDIT: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAAHAHAAA!!!!!!!!!!! So Holy shit! Apparently, the script is on it's way to it's first production meeting! This is the part where I poop my pants! This might actually happen! Like for real!
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[13 Apr 2009|07:44am] |
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What an absolutely fantastic weekend! It was my first weekend off in about a month. Scott and I finished the script. It took nearly all night Friday night, but it's done. YAY! Tammi is correcting it today. YAY! Saturday I was so exhausted from the insane week I had that I slept like 20 hours. It was AWESOME! We got up and went shopping for weird crap. A couple of months ago she introduced me to a thrift store that sells every kind of ortho brace imaginable. I have since converted my Sideshow Wagon into a massive toy box full of ortho. Seriously, I could make a couple of humans out of all the braces I have now. HA! Sunday I had my first real shoot with Tam(using some of the braces.) She was amazing! We got some beautifully twisted stuff for Easter! YAY! It was so funny to watch her cook a gigantic Easter ham in bizzare makeup, a 5 foot long wig, torso/neck and shoulder harness. We got good and fat on dinner and went drinkin'. YAY! Good times. I am so sprung over that girl. How could I not be. She's beautiful, talented, the most caring woman I've ever met, and she's freakin' hilarious! Plus she got my name tattooed on the inside of her lip. HA! How freakin' cool is that! Now it's Monday and I am at work. I have no idea what I'm doing here today. HA! Maybe I'll leave:D
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[10 Apr 2009|02:45pm] |
YAY! My first big album cover release! If you're not busy tonight, go to the show! I believe it's at the Moore in Seattle. It'll be a blast! It's so nice to be a part of something that I am a fan of... YAY! I REALLY REALLY REALLY wish I could make it to the show, but tonight is an all nighter with the script:( Gotta be done though! Viva la FUTURE!!!!!!
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[10 Apr 2009|07:06am] |
Man of Perdition is nearly done. YAY! Scott finished his draft last night. Tonight we sit down together and make it concrete(all nighter.) Fucking sweet though! Tomorrow we focus it out to our readers. Get the scripts back on Monday. Tuesday it goes to mutha fuckin' Hollywood! HA!
Yesterday I had a small triumph:) The crazy librarian who lives below me pulled her shit again a few days ago. This time she complained to the building management. "He has a cat. his girlfriend moved in. He smokes in his apt." She has complained to me 5 other times besides this about noise. Once when I moved in. 2 other times when I hadn't even been home for almost a week each time. Again, about Tam putting away clothes. And another time she had cornered me at my van just to make sure I was beginning to hate her. Considering that I have only spent 11 nights in my apartment in the 3+ months I have lived there, I consider it straight forward harassment. I also think she has done this in the past to other tenants she didn't like the look of. The site manager, when showing me around, even called her a, "fucking cunt." That just doesn't happen unless there is history with someone.
Anyway, the last time she complained was the final straw. I wrote a big letter to management pointing out all of the above and the fact that since this is a known problem, it should have been disclosed to me before I signed the lease. I wouldn't have moved in had I known. They called me yesterday. Apparently no one has put it to them straight forward like that and pointed out the, "you should have told me this." factor. Anyway, they told me I can't get out of my lease, but she is not to talk to me in anyway shape or form, and any communication with me will land her ass on the street. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! I WIN BIOTCH!
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[08 Apr 2009|08:15am] |
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DAMN! It's been a while since I have been this horny for a song, but DAMN! I cannot stop listening to "Boom Boom Pow!"
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| Life is so strange! |
[07 Apr 2009|08:23am] |
My life is never completely in balance. Or, maybe it's the definition of balance. It's hard to say when you are living it. When ever something bad happens, shortly after, something equally good happens. The more horrible the bad is, the greater the good is. It's so weird.
I'm on the cusp of bankruptcy, with my financial future going down the tube. I am getting used to the idea of knowing that a fresh start is within reach but it's still hard to come to terms with the fact that I failed. Then... something completely magical happens... I get an email out of the blue, from someone who accidently stumbled across my work online. I am not going to say who, just in case this doesn't happen, but OH...MY...GOD!!!! This person is responsible for not just a couple, or even a handful, but a plethera of films that are considered some of the greatest special effects driven films of all time!!! The conversation spanned over the last 2 days. It started with one sentence, "I HAVE to work with you!" I of course promptly pitched Man of Perdition without giving any details (you never know who you're actually talking to online.) The conversation ended with extreme excitement and a, "Hollywood is hungry for original ideas like this and if I like the script, I will personally get it to the money men." No fucking shit! Everyone who has heard the lowdown on this script says it is a career defining film. It's damn good and I'm not just saying that because it's mine. I know in my gut he'll not just like it, but LOVE it! Ladies and gentlemen, I'm going to make my first feature length Hollywood film! FUCK YEAH!
On top of that, we might have found our lead actress. We Screen/Makeup test her on the 12th. DOUBLE FUCK YEAH!
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[02 Apr 2009|10:50am] |
New Wells FUCKO drama... Grrrr, so yesterday I went to pay my rent and discovered that I had only $4.07 in my account. Wells Fucko took all my money and left me unable to live yet again, despite the fact that I went through the process of making it illegal for them to do that to me. Thankfully Tam loaned me a grand to pay bills. I feel so fucking worthless right now. I haven't had to barrow money since I was 18 years old. I got into a screaming match with the Wells Fucko agent on the phone, "Where's my money?" She actually had the nerve to say to me, "If you were hurting so bad, you wouldn't go to Starbucks would you!" Are you fucking serious lady!!! I have been living for so god damned long like this that if I want one small luxury to keep me sane like fucking coffee, I'll have it! I think that was the last nail in the coffin, Bankruptcy is eminent. I am calling my realitor today to see how bad it will hurt him/my home sale if I file. I am so fucking desperate and cornered right now. Tam moved in with me this last weekend. She is, hands down, the coolest woman I have ever met. I have been so depressed lately though that I can't even enjoy it. It fucking sucks!
My mom called me yesterday in the middle of all the drama. I don't know how she does that. I am in the car in an empty parking lot just screaming at the sky and she calls. That's pretty fucking cool. "Keep your head up son." I'm trying, it's just overwhelming ya know. Every single day there is a new foot that comes out of nowhere and kicks me squarely in the nuts... I need an emotional break from all this.
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[23 Mar 2009|11:24am] |
Okay, so nevermind what I said in my last post about it being the last post where I bitch about house stuff. THIS is the last post I bitch about house stuff:) I just spent the last hour cancelling all the photoshoots I have lined up for the next 2 months and I am beyond cranky about it. WELLS FUCKO STRIKES AGAIN!
This morning I was attempting to quit smoking....again. Then, the collection calls started at 8:15 and it was a choice between buying a pack or driving the Astroglide into the nearest Wells Fucko branch, hopping out and personally bitch slapping every last living soul still standing. Needless to say, I bought a pack. YAY! Anyway, when I informed Wells Fucko that I won't be paying any bills because I am on the verge of bankruptsy due to the fact that they won't deal with my short sale. They informed me that the last submission of my records was over 6 months ago. I have submitted the info AT LEAST 5 times in the last 7 months. They didn't bother to submit my records for approval YET AGAIN!!!!!!!! No wonder our economy is failing! They are ALL retarded! Completely and irrepairably retarded. Now they tell me that the waiting period is yet another month, pretty much guarenteeing I lose my second buyers and my inevidible bankruptcy. You would think in the current economy that a bank would want something rather then nothing. NOPE! Apparently it's easier to take a hundred thousand dollar loss and completely fuck me over for the next 10 fucking years then it is to walk to the next cubical over and hand "approval guy" my fucking file! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!
Anyway, It's hard to even attempt to guess their next move, considering they are working on a whim, or a lottery system or maybe even consulting the Oricle at Delfi. Who the fuck knows, certainly not Wells Fucko. Until they figure out their ass from their face, ALL PHOTOSHOOTS ARE CANCELLED! I can't afford it and I am depressed as all hell because of it. Sorry, I just needed to vent before I break stuff. I don't understand. I just don't. Why are hard working people who try to better themselves punished? I am finally on the verge of doing work that's worth a shit and actually getting recognized for it. Now I'm just dead in the water. Fucking FUCK!!!
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[13 Mar 2009|04:22pm] |
This is the last time I bitch about this. I promise. I just need to vent and I don't feel like talking to an actual human. FUCK WELLS FARGO! Fuck them right in their stupid fucking asses with a branding iron!!!!! Petty Douche Bag mother fuckers!!!! I will NEVER EVER, FOR AS LONG AS I LIVE, buy another house!!!! Here's the skinny...
My house has been up for sale (short sale like EVERYONE else) for well over a year now. I have 2 mortgages. 1 with Countrywide (who have gone completely out of their way to be totally fucking awesome!) The other mortgage is with Wells FUCKO (who have gone completely out of their way to fuck me over!) Anyway, I had an offer about 6 months ago. Countrywide said "your debt is completely forgiven, go forth and be free" YAY! Wells FUCKO didn't bother to process anything and after 3 months of waiting, my buyers backed out. I had another offer right after the back out. That offer has been on the table now for 3 months. Again, Countrywide says, "Go forth little bird, be free." Again, Wells FUCKO sits on it. My second buyer is on the verge of backing out. Wells FUCKO says, "We'll let you off the hook, IF Countrywide gives us $10,000." Countrywide, says hell no, of course. They are already covering the lawers and closing costs to the agent's. I'd have said, fuck you, too. Wells FUCKO comes back with another demand, "We want ALL the money in Chad's account." Litterally, I'm not shitting you, "We want ALLLL of it." That was the money left over from my tax refund that I was going to use to start my business. "Fine," I say, "clean me out as long as it means I am out of the god damned house!" Apparently that's not good enough. They sent an assesser out to "re-determine" the value of the home. Now they want to start the process over again! NOW, AFTER 3 MONTHS...WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!! They want check stubs and statements... again. They are going to cost me my buyers and purposely force me into bankruptcy.
I have learned so much from all of this and American values in general. I have been around the block more then a few times. I am not a naive guy but there are certain basics rammed up your ass from birth on, in this country. Hard work is rewarded. Wrong! It is an outright lie! Hard work is punished! It is ALWAYS punished. I have spent my whole life working hard and trying to get ahead. I wish I had never bothered wasting those years. I can't name anyone who has accomplished more then me. I don't think any 10 people in my life put together, even come close to my accomplishments. That's not arrogance, it's a fact. When I set out to do something, I don't talk about it, I just fucking do it! Everything I have done has literally cost me ENDLESS amounts of blood, sweat and tears... and Saturday nights, when I could have been out drinking, or fucking dumb chicks. Instead, I was empire building. All of that Blood adds up to nothing! And that blood, after a while starts to feel a hell of a lot like lead shot slowly burring me beneathe it's weight. When I watch TV I really begin to wonder if I being a fucking idiot is the way to go, like that twat "Octomom." This twat has 8 babies for the sole purpose of getting a bigger welfare check. Instead of getting a bigger welfare check, she's on Dr. fucking Phil with a million bucks in her pocket and a shiney new mansion. WTF!!!!!! I wake up every morning and I TRY! I don't wait for it, I work for it! And at every turn, I am shit on. The first words every child should hear when they are born in this country is, "Don't bother." Anything else is a lie.
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[06 Mar 2009|02:53pm] |
Queen in Decay
Model: Mz Chula
Makeup: Lucia Cingolani
Photography/CG/Wardrobe & Hair: Chad Ruin
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[27 Feb 2009|12:47pm] |
View the whole set...NWS
Model: KiKi B Nudes
Makeup: Lucia Cingolani
Photographer/CG: Chad Ruin
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| Lotus Among Scorpions |
[24 Feb 2009|01:12pm] |
Here is the first release of 4 brutal shoots I had a couple of weeks ago. I am re-learning Cinema 4D. FUN! FUN! It's tough, but totally worth it. This is definitly the toughest shoot I have ever done, considering the HOURS it took to create it. 27 hours to make the dress and hair, and some 30 odd hours to build the set (and paint it.) I wanted to go all out for this one. I'm told it will most likely be released nationally. YAY! Now if I could just start making some money at it. HA! Well, I hope you like:)
Lotus Among Scorpions
Model: Susan Kang
Makeup: Lucia Cingolani
Photography/CG/Wardrobe: Chad Ruin
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[11 Feb 2009|10:29am] |
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HAHA! Well it's just past a month into '09 and I already met my goal for the year.... I got my first magazine cover. YAY!!!! Gotta pick a new goal now. I am thinking I should shoot a celebrity. Not just any celebrity, gotta be strange and fascinating.
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[10 Feb 2009|11:18am] |
Okay. I am going to lay this out there because I have had enough. Blythe and I are not just done! WE ARE VERY DONE!!! We have been VERY done for a VERY long time now and we will NEVER happen again... EVER... period... the end! I am so fucking sick of people giving me updates every fucking day like I fucking care or something. I don't care who she's fucking or what she's fucking doing. She has her own thing going, as do I and I have seriously never been happier. I wish her the best. I hope she's happy and living the life of her dreams, and I know she wishes the same for me. I don't know why people can't accept this. We both have! I am so fucking sick of drama causing bitches getting in my shit because they have pathetic fucking lives with nothing better to do. Drama causing bitches, here's what I want you to do... bend your dicks back and FUCK YOUR OWN ASS! Get a life or delete yourself. I don't fucking care!
Seriously, the next person who insists on "updating" me, and by "updating" I mean "poking me for a reaction," the only reaction you will get will be the extraction of, at the very least, 2 of your fucking teeth with my fist for annoying me with shit I could care less about. That goes the same for "close" friends. I can't be any more clear then that.
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[09 Feb 2009|09:42am] |
WOW! It was a career defining weekend this weekend. I am so exhausted. I never thought photography would kick my ass like that. These were not ordinary photoshoots though. Bright and early Saturday morning I had my first real paying gig. YAY! I thought it was going to be me, the model and the producer.... Boy was I wrong. I show up early. There were already tons of press people there and not everyone was even there yet. The shoot was for the new Ventures album cover. Fucking cool! I have always loved the Ventures. It was cool to be apart of a historical moment to begin with but to be able to be apart of something I love and make money doing it is undescribable. The press was there to shoot me and the model working, and to snag a few images of as much of the band as they could. I have never had that happen before. It was surreal to shoot a model while being shot by 3 or 4 still cameras and a documentory filmmaker at the same time. Yesterday I was in 3 seperate papers alone. FUCKING CRAZY COOL!!! 1,100 shots and 3 hours later we wrapped and I ran off to meet my next model of the day...
Lucia works her magic, creating the most beautiful porcilyn doll-like makeup I have ever seen. We get the model into the gown and wig, adorned from head to toe in pearls. We stepped back and stared at the model, speechless. We silently high-5, shaking our heads, knowing that it was one of the coolest things we had ever been apart of creating. Seriously, I almost cried. I didn't even want to take pictures, I just wanted to stare at her. We wrapped a very long shoot day and I was completely passed out by 9pm.
Sunday, Lucia and the next model arrive and we start all over again. I didn't think we could possibly top the prior day's shoot, shit, was I wrong. This was going to be a national release (please don't ask, I'm not allowed to talk about it, there are confidentiality contracts involved) so we took ALL day to create, hands down, the coolest thing I have ever been apart of. It took me 28 hours and $400 to make the gown and scorpion tail headress. It was worth every cent and painstaking minute of it. Again, Lucia and I had to step back and just stare. I think I even pinpointed the exact second I knew this was it. This was the career defining moment the 2 of us had been looking for. This was the Vogue cover. This was the rock star. This was what I had always wanted to say. This was birth... I can't describe it the feeling. It felt like completion...
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[26 Jan 2009|09:27am] |
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Tam and I didn't leave the couch all weekend. We were both so sick, we just snuggled up under a cozy blankie, watching movie after movie, eating nearly the entire box of homemade candy my mom sent, with a constant rotation of kitties on our laps. Even sick as hell, we still have the best time together. So very happy.
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